Sudden shoulder pain due to a self-esteem conflict about of the mother in the house.
12 years ago my husband and I asked my parents to move in with us. We were buying a new larger home and had 3 young children. I knew my mother wouldn’t want to be in a dark room, so we offered them the master suite on the ground level and we moved our bedroom into the lower garden level. The children’s rooms were on the 3rd floor, so we all had space. For the most part, it was very nice to have everyone here. It gave us more hands to help with the kids and gardening and renovations. It was a great multigenerational situation.
At one point, a few years in, my younger brother had a suicide threat and after hospitalization, we moved him into our guest room on our floor in the bedroom next to us.
Years passed and the children grew into teenagers. The house started to feel tight and cramped. My husband and I felt as though we couldn’t do the things we wanted in our own home and I felt completely devoid of privacy with my brother in the next room.
For about 5 years, I tried to plant gentle seeds that my extended family could start to consider other living options, but, those seeds never germinated.
Finally, several weeks ago, I had an honest conversation with my mother about my need to make new plans for the living arrangements and that I wanted to move out of the lower level and into the master suite. The conversation took a lot for me to initiate, but I was sincere in my need for a new arrangement and felt that I had been incredibly patient. For weeks I didn’t hear anything and so finally, I asked her if she had discussed her desire to move somewhere with my father. “No, I have not,” she replied.
“You do know that I don’t want to keep living in the basement?”
“Yes, you mentioned that,” she responded.
I was incensed. “You know I have been wanting to move out of the cold basement for 5 years?” She said she hadn’t realized it had been that long.
I immediately left the room, before my anger could escape my mouth and create a more uncomfortable situation. I vented to my husband and avoided my mother for days. 4-5 days later while in the kitchen, my mother mentioned that she had told my father and that he was looking at buildings that could be erected in the back of the property. I felt a wave of calm come over me.
The next evening I noticed some tightness in my upper body. I went to bed and in the morning I woke with an intense Shoulder Pain under my left shoulder blade that pulled into my neck when I turned my head.
My first thought was, hmm, did I sleep on my shoulder wrong? However, I knew that from a GHK perspective, there was a much more precise cause for the Shoulder Pain. As a right-hander, when I thought of an SDC on my mother/child side, it was only my daughter that came to mind. I got lost in thinking that I had done something that I was judging myself for as the parent of a teenage girl. It perplexed me.
I didn’t think much of it until the next day, when I read a GHK excerpt about frozen shoulder that mentioned if the pain is under the shoulder blade it pointed to a feeling of betrayal. In that moment the flash of insight filled in the missing pieces.
After living so long in a cold dark space in my own house to give my mother the master suite, when I finally told her what I needed and she didn’t act, I felt betrayed. When she finally did act, the conflict resolved and I went into healing and the shoulder pain started the next evening. The shoulder has decreased in discomfort for the past 5 days to now where it is almost completely gone.
It was really satisfying to figure this out and see the program so clearly aligned with the timeline. I love being more in tune with my subconscious through GHK and the information being presented by the body.
Commentary GHK-Academy
Three generations in one house used to be the norm, and many of the chronic illnesses and conflicts that are now considered widespread did not exist back then. On the other hand, however, the situation also offers the potential for conflict and tracks that are difficult to avoid if not everyone has their staked out territory that is respected by the others.
You simply felt guilty towards your mother for coveting where she lived. Conflicts quickly arise in such a tense situation. You felt guilty towards your mother for wanting to kick her out of her usual living space and suffered an SDC as a result, seeing yourself as a bad daughter to your mother.
You were saved by your father, who respected your territorial claim and thus resolved your conflict. The healing pain in your shoulder followed the conflict resolution, and yes, sometimes all it takes is the one true word and you recognize the entire conflict situation.
Thank you for your testimonial.